still no fucking comments.

just kidding... okay so tomorrow is july 1. 18 days til my bday. yay! I guess that's exciting. :)

What's even more exciting is that I finished my first summer class. Pretty nice, although the next one starts next week :-/

I guess I've been in a pretty good mood. duh it's summer. that always helps, but i have to admit that for the first time well a few weeks- minus the mishap last  weekend when I forgot to take my meds with me when visiting my bf... not a fun way to start off what was supposed to be a fun weekend!

But anyway, I have been feeling A LOT better... more stable, more "normal". More myself. I've gotten over trying to please other people, and I'm just happy being me.

Let's see how long this good feeling will last.

Any bets? The the "interesting" thing about Bipolar. My mood will do a 180 on you at any given moment, usually with some warning. But hell, it's annoying as fuck. It does make for one hell of a reality show though. Those Jersey Shore guidos don't have shit on me. haha.

The drama that comes with my life, is well... real I guess. The only difference is that I'm running AWAY from it. FAR AWAY. I'm not trying to stir some ish up by getting drunk, then fighting some crazy bimbo on the street, then calling my dad at 3am because no one will pick me up from jail... I've only seen  about 10 minutes of Jersey Shore, so forgive me for adlibing.

But my drama is unwanted. I do everything I can to avoid it. That's how I am now anyway. I'll admit that even as little as a year ago I could have been cast by MTV. Except that I'm not italian. And I don't Tan.... My boyfriend goes to the gym though. :) I sometimes do laundry... Ok, you got me- my parents still do my laundry, but it's their choice, not mine.

But yeah, with all the f-bombs leaving my mouth, and the shitty people I was hanging around with... The constant arguing, drama, hook-ups, etc... Like I said I don't know what goes on in that show but I could have been BITCHI, the tall, flat chested, big assed cast member.

Yeah, i guess that's not funny, since I'm not even laughing... hmm, any other ideas for Jersey shore names...

Never mind.... such a waste of time.

 Moving on,

 I am trying to think of a creative way to celebrate my 21st that doesn't involve alcohol, since of course I can't drink.

I'll get back to you when I figure that one out.